Friday, September 3, 2010

title pic Considering the butt

Posted by Lilith on September 29, 2009

The butt has never been on the sex table for me and my sexual partners. I have always had the mindset that I would reserve anything pertaining to the butt until I’m about 40, have tried everything else with my partner, and need to spice things up a bit in the bedroom. Then activities concerning the butt would be considered.

But after I started dating Ash, some ass activities started happening. No penetration of any kind, but touching, tickling and as uncomfortable as this is to admit, some rimming. But if it were up to Ash all activities concerning the butt would go down. He has been pretty interested as of late in fucking my ass. I however, have retained my original stance.

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A sexy ass in the shower

That was until today. Ash, in an attempt to change my mind, sent me a recent post by Alexa of Real Princess Diaries called Anal Thought for the Day. This post didn’t have much of an effect on me because I have not had anal sex, but it did lead me to another post of her’s – a post that recounted her first anal fucking experience. The post, It Was So Intense That I Almost Blacked Out not only actually got me considering anal sex, it turned me on, and made me consider the possibility that anal fucking could be amazing, clean and enjoyable.

The whole thing, though, makes me nervous and makes me question my maturity. I don’t know if I could talk about my ass in a sexy way. I would just feel silly. Some people giggle at the word “penis.” I imagine I would be the kind of person who would say something like “I want your cock in my butt,” but I wouldn’t be able to say it without giggling or cringing. I don’t think I would feel sexy or confident saying that, which really makes me question if I’m ready for the actual thing.

Beyond the verbiage of butt sex, I am scared shitless of actually doing it. First I’m afraid I won’t be able to relax enough to enjoy it, and I will end up making the whole experience worse and make me refuse to try it again. Additinally, I’m worried about accidents happening, and that would be really tramatic. I don’t want either of these situations to happen. I really don’t want the event to be tramatic or unenjoyable.

Alexa provides some good tips and strongly promotes practicing, which didn’t even occur to me for some crazy reason. I can’t believe how much my perspective has changed, but maybe some practicing is in my future. Maybe it will be 16 years of practicing or maybe it will be a few days or weeks. At this point I can’t say. But I am willing to consider the possibility of anal fucking before I hit my forties and I am extremely hopeful that it will not only be clean but enjoyable as well. Here’s hoping!

xoxo Lilith Diana
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